Lets catch up…

well, again, i havent been very faithful about posting.  i think about it all the time, but dont always have the time to sit down and do it, or have other stuff going on.   i dont know how some of my other friends are able to get to their blogs so much!!

well, my world as a ballpark mom has recently started. i would like to say that i am extremely excited about this, but if im honest…not so much. thats horrible, i know.  im just so not a sports person. dont get me wrong, i do enjoy watching my lil cuties out there playin weeball, but then the heat and dirt and all that start getting to me. i think what makes it harder right now is i have jonathan, and he’s so small right now, and gets fussy and hot out there, and i have to try to keep him outta the sun so he doesnt burn, so i get frustrated cuz i feel like i being pulled in many directions at once and its hard to watch the boys play. this too shall pass! haha.

logan is 4 and 1/2 now, and closing in on the end of his vpk year, which is, if you dont know, preshool.  i cant believe how fast this year has gone. its sad.  he’ll be in kindergarten next school year!!  he’s doing very well in school. he’s very smart, and tries to please…his teachers, that is. they say he’s a very good boy. i think he lets it all out when he comes home!! haha.  but he is a very sweet boy, just a little wild sometimes!

luke is 3 and 1/2 and slides in right under the cutoff for school with an august 31st birthday, so next year, he will go where logan goes now. he talks about it all the time, but i wonder how he will do when the time comes. where as logan knows no fear, and no strangers, luke is a little more aprehensive. i worry what will happen the first day of school.  but, as with the nursery at church, he’ll adjust and be fine.  as i mentioned  in an earlier blog, he loves to sing! that boy can partially sing almost any song that comes on k-love!

jonathan is 3 months.  he’s getting sooo big, way too fast!! i cant believe how time has flown with him already.  he has been our most trying baby, very fussy at times. it can make a person crazy.  then, he gets in the sweetest moods. he smiles and talks and coos and i absolutely love it.  i wish he could just coo at me like that forever!! its the sweetest sound!!! and he has the best little smile.  on the flip side, that boy has some lungs!!! he can scream!  i joke and say he still sounds as ticked off as the day he was born. you know, how they sound mad at the world because you’ve made them come out of their cozy womb??  he still sounds like that. haha.

time is flying by!  i try to hold on to it as much as i can, but it just keeps on going.  i think all the time about how it took 4 years to get pregnant with logan, and how they were the loooongggest 4 years ever, and now, logan is already 4 and 1/2!! that part flew by!!

$50 for peace of mind

so, if you’ve read my previous blog, you know somewhat what is going on with baby jonathan. well, i called his dr. thrursday about the problem. they wanted me to keep a log of what he ate that day, and call back in the morning to let them know. so, thats what i did. i called about 8 friday morning, and had to leave a message at nurses desk. he had had about 19 oz in 25 hours.  definitely not his normal. they finally called me back at 2 that afternoon, after they had closed.  i was annoyed bout that, of course.  she said dr. was fine with it, but continue to keep a log over weekend, and call if it wasnt any better by monday.  i asked if he could take several days to develop a reaction to the soy we had put him on, and she said it could, so there was a possibility.   i kept thinking ear infection b/c he would cry everytime he started to eat, but he still wanted his pacifier, so that didnt make sense.

as the day went on, he still wasnt eating much. by around 530, he was very fussy, and not eating well still.  gave him some tylenol to maybe help with whatever was wrong with him.  he continued to get more upset, and i thought, what if something is wrong?  what if it is his ears or throat?  that combined with the fact that john is sick and cant give me a hand made me a little crazy!!  by this time, he’d had 25 oz in 40 hours. not much at all.

im rambling, so i’ll try to wrap this up!  i took him to urgent care, they dont see them this young, and suggested i go to er.   so, off we went.  everything checked out.  no ear infections, no sore throats.   they suggested taking him off the soy, making sure he stayed hydrated, and cont. tylenol if that seemed to help.  he’s actually doing better this morning. hes had bout 8 oz since 5 am, and seems to be taking bottle better.

and it only cost me a $50 copay to find all this out… 

my little man…

so, not sure exactly whats up with jonathan.  it is now 545 pm, and since 330 am, hes had 9-10 ounces to eat. thats not like him at all. he seems ok otherwise, no fever, no other symptoms.   He acts hungry, but when i give him the bottle, he starts to eat, then starts to cry. i thought ears, maybe, but he still wants his pacifier.  i called the dr, and they want me to keep a log of what he eats today and tonight and call in the morning.   im also keeping track of wet diapers just to make sure he has enough.  i hate something being wrong with my babies and not knowing what it is and how to fix it!!  pray for him please, thanks!

WHAT A DAY!!!

so, this is not how i intended to come back to the blogging world.  i planned to have a big blog to fill you in on all that has happened in a year.  and theres some big stuff!  i mean, i have another child now!  haha. i will get to that blog, eventually.  but i just need to talk about today!!!

i keep taking deep breaths, but it still feels like i need to take them!  john came home from work sick yesterday, and it just got worse. im thinkin flu. so, hes been stayin away from the rest of us mostly, which means i get to do it all!  not his fault, i know, but none the less stressful! tonight was church, and i was supposed to bring food to a choir fellowship. so, im rushin around trying to get the boys ready, while my baby boy is being super fussy! so i was pretty late getting out the door.  i kept thinkin, why go??  then i thought, b/c the alternative would be staying home with all three by myself!!  lol.

i just dont know what to do about my new little bundle of joy sometimes…i love lil jonathan with all my heart, but he seriously stresses me out sometimes. we switched him to soy formula bout a week ago, and things seemed sooo much better. but the past few days, its like the old J is back. (i’ll probably refer to him as J a lot.  saves my fingers.)  last night, he screamed like someone was doing something horrible to him for 5-10 minutes, and i could do nothing with him. finally gave him gas drops and tylenol, and wrapped him up and put his paci in. he finally slept.  he hasnt been eating like normal, and acts like it hurts to eat. i guess if this keeps up,  i will be calling the dr. he has no fever, seems fine otherwise.  but, let me tell you, when hes happy, and content, his smile will light up my world! and his little coos….absolutely the most adorable sound ever!!

add all this to a three and four year old that sometimes run wild, and well, you get the picture.

but, i am truly so thankful for my boys. between them and God,  i somehow make it.  i got in the car to go to church, feelin like balling my eyes out, and “indescribable” was on the radio. now, first of all, this is a great song, really brings things into perspective.  secondly, i love to sing. i thank God for song.  i wouldnt survive without it.  its such a stress reliever for me!  so, you better believe i turned it up, and belted it out for all i was worth!!  thirdly, my little lukey pookie, loves to sing too!  and he was back there singing for all he was worth!!  i really need to videotape him.  he doesnt know all the works, so he just makes up his own.  im tellin you, between the song and luke singin, i could not stop smiling!  definitely a different feeling than just 4 minutes before.

so in closing tonight, thank you God, for being indescribable. thank You, for being amazing.  Thank you that You are incomparable, and unchangeable. Most of all, thank You that you see the sins of my heart, and You love me the same.  for that reason alone, i can smile.

Round the mall in 2.5 hours!!

ok, lets back up here to this past friday night.  we are meeting my stepson and fam at red robin to celebrate his b-day.  we get there early, so we walk around for a bit.  we find the little kiddie rides, and the boys wanna ride, but neither of us have change, so they just get to sit on them.  they had fun still.  no big deal.

fast forward to today.  i decide i wanna get out of the house, and besides my recent trip, which was very short,  havent been to the mall in a while.  so, i load the boys up and we take off to the mall, all the while explaining to them that mommys gonna walk around the mall a bit for excercise, then we’ll have lunch and get some change and ride some rides!!  woo hoo!!  so, i do 2 laps around the whole mall.  in between laps we take a potty break.  then we go to the food court and have lunch.  potty break again.  so now, i wanna go in some of the stores we walked past and check them out. then we’ll get change and ride rides.  less than 20 min. after our potty break logan has to go again!!!  so all out again to go potty.  then i walked ALL OVER THE MALL AGAIN trying to find a change machine that worked!!  none of them did.  they put them by the rides, and they dont work!!!  imagine that!!  less than 20 min. later, logan has to go again!!!!  so i go to belk cuz  its closest and wander all over it and finally find the restroom.  i am not getting luke out again.  he just went.  luke gets this funny look on his face and i say luke what are you doing, and he grins at me and says i peepee in my pants.  ugh!!!!!  hello, we are in a bathroom!!  how hard would it have been for him to tell me??? 

so, finally, i have given up on the change, and decide to get the boys some cookies to make up for  it.  then i think hey, maybe they can give me change!!  so, i purchase 3 cookies, and when she says $4.50 please, i almost fell out!!!  so i give her her 2 extra dollars, explaining my situation, and she says sorry.  everybody comes here for change since we’re close and the machines are broke.  i say ok, but then she has a change of heart and gives me $2 in change.  yay!!!  so, we go back to the rides, i put luke in his beloved schoolbus, pop the change and… waaaahhhhh!!!!  he starts crying, wants out, and i waste 75 cents!!!!!  and logan wont let me put any in for him either.  seriously?!?!?!!? 

on a positive  note, i got more walking in than a expected, and the boys really were good if you dont count a million bathroom trips.  i think we’ll try it again one day!!

luke update

well, i haven’t updated everyone on lukes potty-training like i said i would.  oh, yeah, i know you are all so hurt, right??  haha.  well, last week i knew i needed to buckle down and be more consistent with it cuz we werent getting anywhere.  so i started setting a timer to remind myself to take him!  well, within like, 2 days, he was really getting it!  so far he is doing well.  he doesnt tell me yet, and if i let him go too long, he will still wet, but for the most part he stays dry and goes when i take him.  he’s doing really good!!

**note to readers- some of what you may read below my sound like im smart, like i have some kind of wisdom.  rest assured, that is not the case.  most of what you will read below is what i paraphrase from a commentary ive been reading.  lol.**

I havent posted much lately.  i dont have internet at my house, so i walk down to my moms to use the computer.  sometimes, i think of stuff i wanna post, but just dont have the time to get it done!  ive had stuff  bouncing round in my head all week. 

a friend gave me the verses romans 7 14-25 to look into.  they have really helped.  you may recognize them if you read them.  they are the ones where paul is talking about the two different natures in him, the old and the new.  he talks about how he desires to do good, but then cant seem to.  how the flesh keeps taking over, that old nature.  i must admit.  it just doesnt seem possible  the me that THE Paul of the bible had any such struggle, but i suppose he was human just like the rest of us.  it just seems to me like he was way stronger than that… but i guess the bible doesnt give us his whole life story.

anyways, i am getting off-track!  i wanted to look deeper into these verses, so i began reading a commentary on them.  it went on to describe how when we are born again, we recieve a new nature.  unfortunatly, we still have our old nature to deal with.  when we sin, that is our old nature-aka our flesh.  our flesh will always be flesh, nothing more. it is our new nature that will grow and change.  our new nature will not sin.  (i confess, this was a new concept to me.  never really thought of it that way.)  it is the old nature.  so i began to question myself.  why then why does it seem like a lot of the time, the flesh is running the show???  and then that little voice said, ” who do you feed the most??”  aaahhhhhh.  gotcha.  i am sure you’ve all heard that story.  the old indian chief says it feels like 2 spirits are at war in him.  when the missionary asks which one wins, he says the one i feed the most. 

another thing that i learned, or i guess just reiterated to myself was that all i try to do on my own, in my flesh, would never work. everytime i try to live for the Lord in my own power… bam!  flat on my face. everytime you join a commitee, teach a class, do whatever it is you may do, but you do it on your on power- its useless to God.  what He wants is for me to live in the spirit.   to make my desisions in accordance with His will.  to start each day with Him.  to parent in His spirit.  to clean in His spirit.  to be a wife in His spirit.  to be a friend, a choir member, a sister, a daughter, do my checkbook and spend the money in His spirit. 

so, that is what i am gonna strive for.  i think reading what i did really put things in a new perspective for me.  i think if a believer doesnt really get that she/he has an old nature still to deal with, that there is an evil (satan) still present, trying his best to trip you up, then they are in for an exhausting battle.  i need to understand both sides, so i can learn to deal accordingly. i hope maybe this helps someone else. 

*ch. 7 just keeps going right into ch. 8, so i may find some new stuff in there to share.  we’ll see!

Too funny!

this one actually happened over a week ago, but i figured since i didnt yet have a blog, it was ok to go back and put it in.  one night, john had gotten called back in to work, and the boys were playing on my bed.  well, luke, my youngest, decided to bite logan on the back.  luke is not a big biter, but from time to time, he will take a chomp.  well, i got on to luke and told him to go sit in his room, and logan’s justa cryin.  then he says, in his little tearful voice, “mommy, luke bit me like food, and that hurt!!!”  bahahahaha!  it was so funny.  i love moments like those, where they say the cutest things.

Day one…

well, some of you may know due to facebook, some of you may not, but our first day of potty-training was put off til today.  i had a migraine tuesday, so that was just another good excuse to put it off.  hehehe.  now, dont worry, im not gonna give you a day-by- day, play-by-play, but day one went ok.  he actually did go this morning,and i was so surprised and shocked!!  haha.  he didnt go anymore today, and we didnt get a full day in b/c we had church tonight, so we’ll be at it again tomorrow. 

on the downside, it does not seem to affect him at all when he does wet his pants.  it didnt logan either.  i thought that was the whole point to those cloth training pants.  they dont like the wet feel, so they figure it out quicker???  not mine. they just run around in it like they dont have a care in the world!!!

I think luke actually enjoys it sitting on his little potty, cause i read to him.  he runs right in there and picks up a book and tells me to read!  lol.  so cute.  but, im already sick to death of reading those books!!  oh well.  the price you pay to have wonderful children!  i’ll let you know, maybe in a week, how things are progressing.

potty-training…blah!!

well, heres a post with a different subject.  haha.  tomorrow, my plan is to start potty-training Luke.  yay!  (thats sarcastic, since i know you cant really get the true feel from type)  I hope all goes well.  He seems way more ready for it that logan was when i did him.  only problem is, he doesnt like to wear the training pants.  i intended to start him 2 weeks ago, but  that was the day they were diagnosed with RSV.  so, i could be already 2 weeks into this… ugh.

well, i’ll keep you updated on progress and any funny stories.  pray for us!!!